↓ TranscriptEmily: Dee, if you think this through and really decide, for actual reasons not just self doubt, that there is no good way for you to impact the world outside your duty, then fair enough. But you have to[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
Chapter 52
↓ TranscriptDee: And because it’s always going to be there, you know? Everything is eternal, in a sort of a way. I mean it always exists in its time and place. The past isn’t really different from the future. I[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
↓ TranscriptDee: I’m scared of sticking in a groove, also. I don’t want to accidentally make things too static. I love – and maybe this is mostly selfishness – I love the way life changes and evolves. I think that[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
↓ TranscriptEmily: Yeah, I really don’t know. You’ll have to pay attention, I guess? And listen to people, and – ! Dee, you have to keep talking to people! Don’t be alone! At least see what they’re saying and writing.[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
↓ TranscriptEmily: And if it doesn’t, learn from that in a useful way! Adapt. Refine. Dee: What if I don’t realise? Like I said… I am safe from every consequence. Best I get is ‘feeling bad’. I already feel bad![…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
↓ TranscriptEmily: Start with what’s easy. Dee: What? Emily: It may not be the most perfect or just or whatever, but be practical. Start with what’s simple, obvious, and safe. Like you already are. Dee: But I’m not – oh,[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
↓ TranscriptDee: And if I fuck up, over and over again, and all of my actions and inactions lead to suffering and ruin? For all eternity? Emily: I – don’t – That’s so unreasonable! You’re the immortal typewriter monkey, it’s[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
↓ TranscriptEmily: It kind of sucks, but… Dee: That’s it!? Torture and slavery – everything I didn’t do – Emily: Well, if you want to do something about it now, do it now. Dee: But I can’t now. It happened.[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
↓ TranscriptEmily: Are you though? Dee: Emily, if you think… all this time… (He pauses and stands up and stares out at the clouds.) Okay, this is one of the thoughts that petrifies me. But I am going to keep[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…
↓ TranscriptDee: So I… I’m not sure how I fit in, personal ethics-wise, and also, I’m not sure that my interests align with – with what they should. Emily: Doesn’t that mean being ‘good’ is even less selfishly motivated for[…]↓ Read the rest of this entry…